autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
I am getting several concerned emails so just want to mention this real quick.

 I am fine. The part of Turkey that is hit is eastern side, which is the opposite end. So didn't even feel it.

This being said, this thing is on bigger side even for us, kinda worried about the death toll now. 
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
Most of you probably already heard about this but there is a discussion going on in [personal profile] yvi's journal about a posting in your non-english native language fest.

Apparently it stemmed from people who complained about russian speaking journal influx in DW (must be tuesday).

Anyhow signal boosted.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
So on a more mundane note here is what has been going on with my life outside the big drama of grad school application.

Health-wise I am fine, and actually better than I have been in months or even years in prior. I eat more or less healthy in that I have cut pretty much all corn syrup out of my diet, and overly processed stuff. I sleep well (with the exception of the 2 crazy days prior to application deadline where I pulled 2 allnighters in 3 days to finish my portfolio). Generally I feel like a human being. The only major situation I ran into is that my long standing issue with my wisdom teeth finally surfaced in worst way. In between tooth pain and stitches, I am hoping to celebrate my acceptance sometime next month. In my mind, I am doing as well as I can. Fear and paranoia is still there but I think I am learning to not pay attention to it. It gets easier, when I am not sitting at home.

One occupation I had outside resting and school search has been WoW. Well... uhh... I kinda am a guild leader. Which is actually a lot less glorious than it sounds, but then again I went in knowing what I was going to subject myself into. It is great some days, to have a group that is run the way I want run. On other days, it is just pure frustration. Some days like this week, I ask myself why I am simply not quitting the guild and the game because I don't want to see it but eh, it will go as long as it goes. Overall through it is not as dark as it sounds. I am actually impressed we got as far as we did (lvl 6 guild, raids are somehow run almost every week, although this week will challenge that an RP event in the works) I just wish it would get to the point where there are others holding from various ends to make things work. Eh well, will figure that one out at some point.

post-hiatus

Jul. 5th, 2011 04:42 pm
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
I have been quiet for very long. There was a reason: I was waiting.

tldr: I got into grad school, in FINE ARTS! )

Lesson learned? Follow your dreams. Minimal level of required caution is good, but don't let that keep you away from where you are supposed to be going. To me what I loved doing most: being creative, thinking about what is pretty was always a childish fancy I was trying hard to grow out of. I never considered I could be talented enough to do art or that beyond certain level of basic ability the rest has more to do with what you really work hard for than what you do easily. Only it cost me 4 years of my life and walking to the edge of insanity to understand that one.

Okay rant over on this topic. I'll get the rest of life updates now soon once I calm down. I hope all of you are having a wonderful day.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
yes I am on hiatus.

So...

Apr. 1st, 2011 01:49 pm
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
So... I think I am going back to USA after all. Kind of unexpected turn of events...


details )

Update

Jan. 23rd, 2011 10:39 pm
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
It seems to me lately that all I do in this account is long bouts of silence punctuated with moments of rage.

Part of it is living in Turkey (and in a strange way I love it: I think it is Stockholm syndrome). :P. Part of it is the sheer chaos of having scratched a whole life plan and life to do something new.

It IS new, it is exciting. However sometimes I feel like I am constantly extinguishing bushfires in what is a weird mix subtle culture shock of coming back to another country and trying to start up a career in a field where I have no prior knowledge of. Art is a foreign space. There are days I strongly feel like fish out of water. (but it is slowly getting better).

I am finding I have hard time writing emails in Turkish, and biting my nails before calling someone.getting extremely nervous before calling someone. I have no accent obviously and my vocabulary is mostly in place. I occasionally discover that some words has phonetically warped in my mind but it is becoming less and less as I use the language. My grammar is impeccable. I am no longer wondering if I needed to split "de" off or not the way I did when I first came. I have been told I write and speak pretty well. The problem is it is not easy. I cannot tell the nuances between two ways of phrasing a request. It is less not knowing the language, more the fact that I had never used this language as an adult, so I try to insert English way of forming paragraphs and wording which results on funny first drafts of emails. Usually throughout college and work we acquire that gradually and we get some leeway for being young. So I can tell it apart in English but in Turkish I can't. The bad thing is, I am too old to be given leeway, and I speak Turkish too well for people to  be clued in I have language issues. It is okay, and it is getting better. It is just a bit like walking with eyes closed. You can do it, but you have to be careful, feeling your way around, and you cannot go too fast (and you are screwed if there is a danger ahead).

and there is the culture shock. The thing about Turkey is that people in my little social hole here, are modern, more modern in some ways than what I see in USA and Europe. However the rest of the Turkey is not in a way that is not visible in surface. People wear beautiful clothes, all common technology is available, we have all manners of world cuisines (even sushi apparently, a bit expensive but tasty enough). However then you run into these weird things caused by government (youtube ban that was just lifted, my recent rage over android phone that had no way to buy apps for, movies having scenes cut-off from them), just plain disorganization (like you cannot get recommendations in electronically to, most universities) or bureaucracy that is not better or worse but different than I am used to (like you need to make sure stamps on your passport are done in a legible way because they are official information you might need to copy). It is really not surprising, considering the way this country was only a decade and half ago (and also not surprising considering the current government severely slowed any progress that could have been made, if not pushed it backwards completely). I know some of the same stuff exists out there too (as wikileaks showed us all, freedom of speech is made of smoke) but it is more out there here, more affecting daily life. One major part of living in Turkey is just learning to reroute through obstacles because there is no way you can avoid them. I used to live in this place, I KNOW how it works. However I have never been an adult in this place and have to learn to deal with it myself: which means I am spending a lot of time running and a lot of time sitting on a seat exhausted.

I should have expected this. I DID expect this. However I don't think I knew how it would have felt. It is intensely frustrating. 

and I am not regretting one moment of it. :) I have the snark and the humor to match, bring it on (within reason).
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
So, I have a new shiny android phone....

sans market app.

I cannot even install custom applications without resorting to sdk, let alone access the market.

I plan to yell at motorola for deceptiveness since the whole packaging does not mention anything about a key part of the android missing actually the whole manual in Turkish explains how to use the app, which is like: uh what? Not sure it will make a change granted. Honestly through, I am not sure I would have bought another phone since this one allows me to google map, browse internet and check emails. Lack of tweet app is irritating too but the point is... wtf?

Yeah I know jail breaking is an option, but do you know how annoyingly painful it is to actually manually install marketplace? not that rooting will be exactly cakewalk. Well if I decide to go with it, there is that service online that jailbreaks phones for you and puts it under their own guarantee. A bit sketchy but why not?

Mostly, I feel like an idiot.

In between transcript woes, my laptop fan prematurely dying a  slow death and this, January so far is like a series of unfortunate events.

but really. wtf?

--------

oh and there is the whole thing about my bank of america account that was closed not being closed. I want to be able to spend a day off phone.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
I am trying to get a transcript from Wellesley. So.

*they don't accept credit card
*they don't accept cash! (huh?)
from what i can see they only accept check to pay

in terms of mailing. They don't accept fax requests. I am not sure they accept fed-ex even. 
I am almost sure they don't send stuff with fed-ex even if you pay for it. 
okay apparently they accept this: small miracles.

I need transcripts. There is no way for me to send them a check they can reliably cash (trust me, I have been told they would have to pay 100$ extra just to cash it. I am tempted to send it just for kicks). Even if I somehow get it to work it will take weeks to get back at me.

How on earth any international alumnae get transcripts from this place?

----

venting aside, so far I am trying to contact alumnae office, registrar and international office. Any other bright ideas?


PS: after I deal with this, the next challenge will be getting my diploma translated by a recognized translator. Ha! Finding one to translate from Latin: that is going to be probably interesting as well.

edit: so now I am being forwarded to the controller who is not on office. More updates tomorrow. :) 
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)

Should Colleges Ban Laptops in Class?

I understand her personal preference not to use. However this type of generalizations and professors making policies drives me a bit crazy. I have had one graduate class last year with laptop ban and it was uncomfortable and hindering to my learning so badly that, if I am ever back in school, I will be avoiding classes that have such policies on principle.  Did it make me listen to something I wouldn't otherwise listen? Not really. If anything when I am multitasking I can give some attention to a boring and uninformative presentation by a fellow student (and when you have half of the classroom content to be presented by students this unfortunately happens a lot). Without it, I am left with the options of doodling to focus (which is even more distracting to people around me) or just phasing out completely which means I cannot follow anything.

Furthermore no laptop means I cannot go and quickly check the paper that is being presented for a detail or that I cannot search a term I am not familiar with, hindering my learning. I don't think I realized how often I do this and how much it helps until I couldn't do it. On top of everything else my handwriting is horrible: absolutely horrible. Whether using a tablet with handwriting recognition or typing, laptops means I have legible notes to look over.

If you are not being listened to as a widespread issue, you should start by looking at your own teaching, presenting style. Further than that you need to realize that people might need to momentarily be distracted from you to do something else. They are adults, it is their right to do whatever they please that is not disruptive.

The article also mentions that screensavers and such might be distracting. Indeed I have been in conferences where I took laptop notes, I have been asked to turn it off because it bothered people around me which I complied to. However there are ways for this, like having laptop and non-laptop seats where people who prefer to use the laptops can take back seats while those who do are given front, or assigned sides. It is not that hard to find solutions once we get past the "hey lets ban people from doing stuff".

There are different types of learning styles. Some of us do best by minimal distractions, some of us do well with writing. Some of us do better with just listening. Some of us do best with some interactivity. Having technology in the classroom allows students to customize their learning styles without extra effort from professors. There are ways to accommodate everyone.

autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
Flight from Chicago to Washington... well we were fine until the landing.

It took 3 tries for the pilot to get the damn thing on the ground and it was more like riding space mountain for half an hour (no I am not kidding). The girls sitting next to me were crying by the time we landed, and about 1/4th of the plane did put the sick bags into use (for the record I wasn't one of them). I think there might be 1 or 2 time where we could have crashed (or been in serious risk of crashing) if the pilot made a mistake.

Oh and I got to opt out of the new body scanners.

That was way too much excitement for one flight.


ohh and I still don't know if I am graduating or not. I'll finish the paper in next 24 hours (I hope) but I think it is already too late. Oh well...
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
so it is the bayram today which to me mostly means big family visit of doom. :P 

Not that I don't miss relatives but a 6 hour marathon of people time that involves both my father's and mother's family is a bit too much.

Oh well, will not happen till next august or so, so we'll endure. Plus there is a baby. :)


 


autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
So okay this is a bit embarrassing but... I have been looking into tumblr and a bit confused about what it is about exactly.

On one hand I feel like I should get an account on it because so many of my friends are on it.

on the other hand...

what do you use it for?

Update

Nov. 3rd, 2010 09:43 pm
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
If you are wondering where I went after the last entry? Well one fun thing about living in Turkey is that it is very hard to stay focused on one thing for days on end.

 Like during last week we had a bombing. I talked to [personal profile] enigel about it today. You don't get used to it no, but you get used to living with it. You learn to look at a tied up plastic bag in the middle of the street with suspicion, to report a backpack without an owner to the police. You learn to... well you know some places are more likely targets: and you risk manage from there.

Then today there are some interesting developments (nothing actually too surprising, just more entertaining than expected) concerning CHP. I am amused that a political party can  have old bureaucrats who are super-glued in their seats who think THEY are ruling a party and assigning leaders. This time through... Well, we have a saying for situations like this in Turkish: "hitting a wall with an axe". We'll see who comes out on top out of this one but I am cautiously hopeful that I will be able to say "good riddance" in few days. Well spring cleaning is always a lot of work.

and outside world: I actually have been having hard time watching outside media recently: trying to understand what happened in the states and the political climate, and trying to follow what little actual news TVs and websites bother to show.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
Sometimes I feel like I should get my comments beta-ed. Why is keeping one end of a sentence coordinated with the other end so impossible despite rereading it many many times.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
I haven't really checked my emails yet, and feeling like a log.

Local time is 11:30pm (and it feels like 4am).

I had an okay trip, packing before that went decently. I am here in Turkey in one piece. Details and contact info will come later.

By the way I seem to have an unforseen issue with my computer adapter so my internet access will be sporadic until I can find an adapter or we can fix it.

cheers.

PS: I'll email all of you individually as soon as this whole comp issue is fixed, just hang in there.
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
Alright I know I told I got better at this but I swear this is justified.

ARRRGHH. Trying to throw out stuff is like the most painful think the world.

8 bags of trash I swear, and there still is trash.

and then you have 2 years worth credit card approved forms that needs to be shredded and utility bills that needs to be shredded.

Some stuff that needs to be saved.

Seriously I am so glad I am registered for the fall semester because it means that all this paper doesn't need to go with me or like cut NOW.

Instead I need to figure out a way to get one small luggage and 2 boxes (or is it 3) to college park.  aie to all these cab fees.


Oh and outside my apartment looked like a bookstore earlier. Right now only romance novels are left, I will dump last few items out and remove them in the evening if nobody picks them up. I am kind of amused that my Turkish english dictionnary actually got taken and all those cheesy bodice rippers are still there. Seriously who uses a  Turkish- English dictionary? :P

On the positive side, by some miracle managed to fit into my 2.5 bags plus carry-on although I should probably not talk too early preemptively, since I didn't finish stuffing stuff in quite yet.

Alright crying time is over (and yeah I kind of feel like sobbing at the moment even through so far resisting the urge, I have an hotel room, I really want to actually sleep in it *sigh*).
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
Breaking Down Turkey's Referendum


You guys were asking me about the whole referendum thing that I have a tendency to yell about these days. Not a bad post all in all since it gives multiple points of view. Note that this only focuses on why to say yes or no. Note that this writing focuses solely on the amendment itself, and not the other aspects of the politics and history of the country. Very little of the discourse going on in both sides have to do with the actual amendment.


WoW story

Aug. 26th, 2010 05:11 pm
autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (dreamfall)
You know, I have raids Thursday mornings. 5:30 am to be specific. so after sleeping through my alarm one day, I have became extra careful. Set up alarm clocks, make sure i go to bed early before and all that.

This week I I was also raiding on my alt. So tues and wednesday I raided nicely. and told that thursday evening I cannot raid cause I cannot wake up early the next day.

So this morning I wake up, do some apartment related stuff, then play a bit. then a fellow guildie gets on and tells me: "did you know we had a raid last night?" I was like "huh? I thought we raided on thursdays".

then it dawns on me that today is thursday.

whoops.

You know I took a 5 day break from everything to get some rest. I guess it wasn't quite enough.

(this is somewhat concerning).
autumnus: girl drawing with a backward clock in background (girl)
So, I am 26, suddenly between yesterday and today I got one year older. Yay me.

A year later, still a grad student. A year later... Actually I was going over my journal (I do this semi-annually). I was surprised by the number of meaningful posts. Main change is that I seem to have been reading tons, thinking tons. That makes me surprisingly happy. Yay me!

I am still chaotic, I still panic. I am not graceful. Recovery process is non-existent. However I am changing and that is a good thing.

Not much to say. I am going to go now, play with my tarot cards, and treat myself to a day-long of WoW, DVDs and other stuff. No work today. Starting tomorrow I need to begin packing and setting up stuff in school.

Profile

autumnus: A purple monochrome portrait of Zoe from Dreamfall, with drawn stars in background and "the Dreamer" written on bottom. (Default)
autumnus

January 2016

S M T W T F S
     12
3456789
1011 1213141516
17181920212223
24252627282930
31      

Syndicate

RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Oct. 20th, 2017 05:14 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios